Feb 6

Looking away to not
Catch your eye catching mine
Afraid I give everything away
When I see them in sunlight
There is no you there
Not here, here are none.
To be taken away again
By Leslie's eyes, to look away a day.

Where do
You sit when you
are where
You are right now?
are you watching
Judy break down
because Norman is gone and now
never
tossing her success back
into the ocean
that is such an entrance.

I am trying I swear I'm
trying but my mind
has these imprinted images
there's
This memory of feeling

and
        It doesn't seem to let go
it wanders back to thoughts of you
just being there you were
I could look an entire day away

looking at what I was looking at

that day I could then repeat that,
looking away a day. Drawing you,
Raining down charcoal shades,
Making up names for you, names
For love, happiness from knowing
Nothing more than you exist.

Looking away a day, the hours pass
Through pencil memory. The only place
Your smile remains present
To my presence, present remains
Of my charcoal looking at me,
Looking away a day.