Feb 13

I am shattered at the loss
    Of you
  in my life
But I hope it looked better
Than that
That it just looked like
Any other good bye

There by the cars
You called me buddy

The kind you forget
Or have already
Forgotten
Like the brittle grass
And flowers
You'll throw away in the morning

I didn't know what to say
Terrified of the moment
    of you
Going away 
I lay here
   a quiet single bird
Sings to the morning din
The sun rises, light mixes with 
Everything
        with endings. 

Devastated because of you and
The first morning in this nothing.
Then the days wind
Into October
Overcome by tears, that this day
Will become the years without you. 

Pain moves through me in waves, 
Flood sometimes
The beach when the tsunami hits
Dragged to a drowning 

This day will become the years without you. 
Shattered, in love, heart broken blue.
Lost in a memory.

I become driftwood forgetting,
At sea a season lost
To fog. The mist turns to rain,
I can taste the salt, my eyes closed
At midday, your shapeless presence
Before me in that dark pink void.
The joy returns in thoughts
Of you, Leslie.